Today is the Winter Solstice, the darkest day of the year and the start of a new moon. Before ploughing ahead into 2015 with a multitude of goals and resolutions, today is a wonderful day to reflect on the year that’s passed, see all that’s occurred, and notice important turning points, patterns, discoveries, and opportunities for growth. In a space where time seems to be accelerating exponentially, taking a moment to look back in openhearted and honest reflection allows you to move forward in greater awareness and a deeper sense of internal calm.
As I lay in bed this morning drinking tea and seeing the events of this year dance before my eyes, a major theme became evident: letting go. Not just small amounts of letting go, but huge layers of shedding and releasing that created space for massive receiving.
Some of the highlights include…
Letting go of my limited perspective of myself as a yogi and bringing my fantasy of being a dancer into reality by joining a dance team and performing a hip-hop/burlesque/bachata vignette at the Los Angeles Bachata Festival in February.
Letting go of my apartment which had been my very sweet and cozy home for four years. This meant letting go of my business structure (seeing private clients at my home), letting go of the comfort and security of having my own place, and letting go of the bills associated with living on my own. In so doing I received opportunities to live all over Los Angeles staying with friends and helping out with apartment and dog sitting, as well as traveling around the world to Hong Kong, St. Martin, New York, and Turkey.
Letting go of guilt in receiving generous offers and just allowing myself to receive with sincere gratitude.
Letting go of a rocky relationship that was causing a lot of emotional turmoil and stress. This allowed a clear understanding of how I truly wanted to feel in a relationship and that there was really no need to compromise on that.
Letting go of services that had been the cornerstone of my business for the past five years: private yoga and Thai yoga massage. This created space to build up my current passions for essential oils and my Feel Good Goddess program.
I believe the culmination of all of this letting go, of all of this honesty and reflection allowed for the most hugely massive receiving of all which is the most beautiful love relationship of my life, catapulting me onto an entirely new and thrilling journey!
This year was both incredibly amazing and incredibly challenging. One of my most difficult in fact. Yet I come away with hugely important takeaways…
- There is a fine line between bravery and foolishness. It’s all about your approach, your intention, and your perspective.
- Know your desires intimately.
- When you don’t know what to do, take some time to observe the unfolding. When you do know what to do, don’t hesitate. Trust yourself and have faith that your courage will be supported.
- Surround yourself with loving, open, supportive, and uplifting individuals. They will fuel you, and you will grow together.
I am infinitely grateful for this massive year of release – a true shedding of old skin, old beliefs, old notions of what must be in favor of truly embracing what it means to live in harmony with my desires and my divine feminine energy.
I feel right at the beginning of the process of massive creation. I know I have a beautiful blank canvas in front of me, and starting the year with a month away in Thailand offers me the perfect opportunity to begin painting with fresh eyes. I know my imagination can only begin the brush strokes and the vague outlines. God is in the exquisite details.
Wishing you a blessed Winter Solstice, a peaceful and joyful holiday season, and a vibrant New Year!
All my love,